all songs considered

i met this mac genius at a party on friday night and he gave me some good iphone tips, and mentioned one of his favorite apps is the NPR app. so i downloaded it. and i love it. it has great articles and interesting reads but my favorite is the all songs considered program. every night i've been following asleep to it. there's something about the guys voice and the tunes he plays that just works.

i love having music play in the background all the time--when i'm working, doing dishes, getting dressed, falling asleep, or just hanging, life is always a little better with some good tunes. i feel like living with holly, brooke and denise upstairs in apt b taught me this. music was always on and somehow the music always fit the mood. and sharing a room with holly meant falling asleep to music most nights. i miss that upstairs. and when i hear the songs we listened to over and over it will always make me remember and cause me to tear up and think about how good we had it.

dreams

okay, so i know no one likes to hear about other people's dreams but everyone always wants to share their dreams, well i just remembered mine from last night and wanted to write it down b/c it made me laugh for some reason. warning: i know its not going to be funny to you, but this is my blog so i honestly dont really care that much. :) love you.

i dreamt that i had to give a 4-6 minute speech on something. anything. and of all the zillion things i could have chosen to give a speech on i chose lebowskifest. and i was going to bring in the bumper sticker that my friend gave to me as my prop. i guess i need to watch the big lebowski soon and drink a white russian.

xo

aunt corky

microfinance.

oh and i am researching extensively about microfinance/microloans, the good that it does, how i can help and contribute. great oprah show on empowering women, and this was a huge part of it. and i want to read this book Half the Sky, as empowering women is the issue of our generation: http://www.oprah.com/article/oprahshow/oprahshow/pkgregistry/20090925-tows-microloans

Microloans: http://www.oprah.com/article/oprahshow/oprahshow/pkgregistry/20090925-tows-microloans

Educate yourself with me.

xo

aunt corky

as of late.

i have been bad at posting but wanted to document a few updates and maybe one day i'll go back and write the details about them...

-i am going to a murder mystery party this weekend. i've never done one, but can remember being a kid and my parents going to one dressed up and leaving us at home with a babysitter. weird how this is coming full circle and now attending one and will be leaving my little ones at home with a sitter.
-i am VERY anxious for mr. yogato to open on the east side. its been since july that i had my first experience with mr. yogato and have been waiting patiently i might add for it to open. but this is getting ridic. OPEN ALREADY. i'll be your biggest fan, and bring friends by the dozens.
-still cooking. made salmon and rice pilaf a few weeks back and recieved rave reviews, doing a different salmon dish for girlfriends tomorrow night, and after having chocolate mousse with a rasberry on top at a party on saturday that is my next treat to try. mostly because i want to put whipped cream on top of it and place a beautiful rasberry on the top. just seems fancy and gourmet.
-my trainer is moving at the end of the week. i feel terribly sad. she deserves her own post for sure. jessica is so amazing, and wonderful, and has a great laugh and has seriously been the MAIN reason i have lost some weight, climbed a rock wall, eat a little healthier, and dont fear walking into the gym anymore. we have had some of the best conversations--some so honest and deep, most full of laughs and each i am so thankful for.
-the bon iver show that i saw this past sunday was magical and amazing. the pre and post events were wonderful as well. i am blessed with great people in my world. i'm not worthy.

okay, back to work and then off to get my hair did.

xo

aunt corky

what a stinker.

An email from Ashley..."So I was do proud of hunter for finishing his whole plate of mini waffles...then a few minutes later I found him behind the table and there were his waffles carefully placed in each section of this Halloween candy tray. Silly boy."

so of course i think that my nephew is the cutest, funniest, most amazing human to roam the planet...getting this email and photo on saturday made me laugh out loud, and realize that there are going to be some pretty amazing stories to come. he's developed such a personality, and just imagining his brain plotting this makes me laugh, smile and worry for ash and bill all at the same time. he kills me.

xo

aunt corky

precious.

okay, so i have always loved katherine heigl. i think she's gorgeous, has an amazing laugh, fiercely loyal to her friends and just seems like a fun human.

i watched her announce on ellen that her and her new husby were adopting a baby girl from s. korea with special needs. i fell more in love with her as i have always had the desire to adopt. not now of course (or for a long long time) but one day i hope.

i melted when i saw these sweet photos she released. what an angel. i love baby arm fat.

http://www.jasonheiglfoundation.org/news.html

enjoy!

aunt corky

to control reality is to destroy possibility.

when we try to control everything and believe that we know whats best, or our way is the only right way, we dont allow other possibilities to bubble up to the surface. i love and cling to the promise that the unthinkable is possible with God. but when i really look at myself and how i've been living, i find this to be more true (with the help of listening to god and wise counsel)-- i like being in control and want to make sure that i'm okay, others around me are okay, and everything is going according to plan (mine not god's). i choose to participate and go thru out my day making sure i dont walk into a situation i can't handle, i want to assess the situation and if its "safe" then i'll dive in, but if there is a risk of feeling stupid, getting hurt, or thinking that i might fail, i'd rather abort the situation, back out, or reverse and act as though i wasnt interested, its not my responsibility, or didnt want it that bad. put it to bed and move on. no one gets hurt.

what i think god's been telling over the past few months is by living this way the small and big things of life, i miss out on experiencing the many possibilities of God and what he can do. i've put my relationship with him in a box and said let's stay here where its safe, where i am comfortable, where i know i wont fail, where each day comes and goes and i havent let god be as big as he could be...which speaks to how much i dont understand the fullness and depth of god's glory and his power. my prayer is that god will break thru the box i put him in and i can begin to experience the possibilities of god and i'll be humbled by the way he orchestrates the details of my life because i trust him to be in control. not me.

i want to experience the possibilities of this life with the god who's greatness i'll never comprehend until i see him face to face.